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Beautiful Delusions
You're a disease.
A disease that cripples the mind
Numbs the body,
Eats the soul.
My blood boils,
Skin crawls,
For once I'm euphoric.
You make me feel beautiful,
Like every chip in my personality is there for a reason.
My eyes sparkle with the thought of you,
Chills race up my spine with your touch.
When our eyes meet, I feel a rush of electricity pulsing through my veins
I freeze, and lose my senses
Don't let me fall again..
Catch me, right before I hit the ground
Cover me in kisses.
Brush the hair from my eyes,
Tell me you miss me.
This is what happens.
Delusional, Schizophrenic, Dangerous.
The disease consumes my every thought
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As I lay in bed counting the stars,
I wonder if you see them too.
The same stars I see,
Oh how wonderful would it be?
What does that one look like?
You see it, don't you?
A bumblebee, a flower, maybe a fish or two.
Maybe a bird, or a plane
Let's just listen to the sound of the rain.
Pitter, patter on the windowpane
Cuddles in bed,
Whispering words often unsaid.
Nothing between us, not even space
Oh what I would give to see your face.
Sometimes I wish I was beautiful,
Like a flower.
Gentle, free, fragile.
Who wouldn't be judged and never go out of 'style'
I wouldn't boast my beauty,
Just keep to myself.
Just waiting to be taken off my shelf.
Sometimes, I lay in bed, counting the stars.
Although, usually, I can't count that far.
I simply make a wish, count to three,
Please, oh please could you maybe love me?
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Love, Your Honeybee
Although I'll never get to see your face again,
it will forever be imprinted upon my heart.
Your smile will never shine for all to see,
but it still puts a smile on my face.
Those strong, experienced hands won't ever lift me up on a swing another day
But whenever I see a swingset, I know you're waiting for me.
Waiting for a day that's anything but soon,
that day when we finally meet again.
I want a hug, a tight, bear hug.
The ones you were so great at giving.
I want to argue over whether Barney's name
was actually Barney or not while watching the Flintstones.
I'd give anything to be able to play hide and seek with you again.
Pick mulberries off of our tree in the backyard.
I wish I was a little girl again.
You'd tell me to "run, don't stop, run into that pool like you've never ran before"
I want to be your little girl again, and get it right this time.
I know it didn't seem like you were my world, but you were.
I just hope that while you're up there watching me,
I really hope that you'
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Demon Eyes
They come for her
At night.
All she wants is to be alone,
But those red eyes are all that's shown.
At night they come,
They creep, crawl, and slither
Beckoning her; "Oh dear, come hither"
On the ceiling, on the wall.
Don't get up, you'll take a great fall.
Into the abyss, into the unknown.
But those red eyes, are all that's shown.
Don't look up, don't look around.
Don't you scream, don't make a sound.
If you see them, and they see you,
Oh darling, you'll wish you were dead, too.
The clock ticks on and on,
Her eyes began to close,
that's when the demons arose
"Look at us, come and play" They said.
Hold up, wait, it's all in your head.
Remember what happened last time, you almost ended up dead.
Her heart beats fast, her head began to pound,
She can feel them, all around.
Breathing, Whispering, Staring.
The ticking of the clock slowing..
Wreak havoc on her body,
Let's have our fun
By morning we should be done.
Morning comes and the sun rises,
She wakes up to horrific surprises.
The clothe
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Break The Ice
We fit together so perfectly.
Like a cool breeze on the beach,
Like the calm after the storm
Snow on a winter morning
You're the last piece to my puzzle.
The key to my locked heart.
Can't you see I need you so?
What's lightning without it's thunder?
Who was Beauty without her Beast?
Who am I, without you?
You're the music to my lyrics
The color to my painting
The pro to my con
Milk is boring without cereal, doll :)
I can't hide if you don't seek me
Cops and robbers ain't no fun without anyone to chase
Darling what is yesterday, without today?
You're the smile on my face
The sparkle in my eyes,
The light to my darkness.
Where was Spiderman without his Mary Jane?
Batman without a Joker?
What about Danny, without his Sandy?
Quite a beautiful thing we are darling.
Can you stay with me a while?
Hold me up high, help me fly
Cut the chain, let the anchor sink
I know you couldn't breathe, I couldn't think
Nothing made sense, I wanted to cry
Now that I know, I want to die.
I can't win this stup
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You Are My Fallen Angel: 37
"Andy, there's still a lot you guys don't know about Laurynn, and I'm not sure if she's ever going to let you guys know on her own." I said.
"Go on" Andy said, making sure no one else was around
"Okay, well, Laurynn and I first met a long time ago, y'all know that, but what you don't know is she was addicted to a lot of drugs when I met her, and for a long time after we became friends.
I helped her out of her addictions a couple times, but obviously they never really worked.
Ever since she moved in with me she was clean, and when she met Ashley, she became even more against the whole drug thing, so I can't imagine what would've gotten into her now, and she's fucking pregnant." I whispered
"We have to tell Ashley" Andy said, getting ready to get up
"Wait" I said
He sat back down and listened
"Andy, what if he doesn't believe us..?"
"He'll have to, what more perfect time to tell him then when she's higher than a bird right now?" Andy was obviously a bit aggravated
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Life of an Addict
La première coupe est toujours le plus profond. Après cela, vous ne pouvez pas échapper à la dépendance, vous êtes aspiré dans.
Cold, electric shock, metal.
Slicing into the canvas of skin covering your organs.
The sharp, serrated, edge painting lines of red across the landscape
Hot, thick, liquid.
Slowly rising to the surface of the wound.
Splattering onto the ground like water droplets.
You're numb to pain, to sound, to the touch.
It's not long before you keep going.
Slice, cut, rip, tear, scratch.
Destroy every part of your body.
Make it beautiful.
Plain sight, under clothes, anywhere you can fit one
Press harder on the edge, deeper cuts.
Don't press too hard, don't lose yourself too fast.
Back up, into the corner where you hide your face from the evil of society.
From the corrupted beauty of normal everyday people
Turn the lights off so you dont have to face your fears.
The fear of your demons coming up from the wounds you create
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You Are My Fallen Angel: 35
I kept my eyes on Ashley and Laurynn, basking in their happiness.
I loved it. It was so exciting, we're gonna have a little person running around the house. Ashley looooooves kids, all us guys do so we're gonna be all over that kid.
I noticed Jake and Bri next to me, they were both asleep, I noticed CC and Jinxx were too, that was weird. Usually CC's messing with Bri and Jake and I have to defend her from the evil fire-breathing CC.
I laughed to myself at the thought of our usual car adventures…
We finally arrived home, and Ashley carefully took Laurynn up to their room, I took Bri into the house and put her on the couch, I was hungry so I figured I'd put myself to good use and make something for everyone.
I took Laurynn up and put her into bed
I slipped to the bathroom and turned the water on
Next thing I knew Laurynn was up and asking me how long I've been in the shower.
I thought to myself  "Didn't I just get in here?"
I peeked out and saw
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You Are My Fallen Angel: 33
The boys came on the stage, and me and Laurynn never noticed, we just kept talking to one another about the more important situation at hand.
"Laurynn, I think, before we go telling anyone, you take a test. Maybe two, because the first one you can't ever trust. So, take two tests, a few days apart, and once you get those results, I think we should worry about telling Ashley then." I said, trying to make her feel comfortable.
"Sounds good, I don't want to get Ashley hyped up or anything and find out I was just irregular" She said, turning her gaze to him, and he smiled at her.
"We'll go out later and get them, alright?" I said, turning around trying to see if I could spy Andy's parents anywhere.
"Yeah.." Laurynn trailed off as she got lost in Ashley.
I turned around, to no avail of finding Andy's parents, but I found Andy, hanging from a bar on the awning of the stage.
"Andrew fucking Biersack!! You're going to kill yourself!!!" I yelled, but of course he couldn't hear
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You Are My Fallen Angel: 31
Great.. Laurynn's got amnesia.
I could tell Bri was getting upset, and I was trying to comfort her and Jinxx, but God I couldn't help but feel faint.
I feel like I'm going to fucking die…again
I looked at Laurynn, whose forceful push landed me on the floor,
Oh I was angry.
I simply got up, refusing Jake's help and I went out into the hall, and screamed.
"Motherfucking hell!!" I started hitting and kicking the walls
"Fucking bitch, god fucking damn it" I saw a nurses cart and I grabbed all the needles I could find, stuck them in my pocket and turned to walk back into Laurynn's room.
Jake and CC were watching me the whole time, they saw everything
They looked at me like 'What are you doing with those needles'
"Don't tell anyone" I growled, walking back into her room
I went up to her,
"Laurynn Michelle, I am your best friend and we've known each other since middle school, that's Ashley, he's your fiancée, that's Jake, Christian, Andy and Jinxx, Blac
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You Are My Fallen Angel: 29
"Andy...I love you" I was starting to cry, I looked at him, and gave him my hand.
He slipped the ring on my finger; it was a diamond, with my birthstone, a garnet, and his, a blue topaz surrounding it, all on a silver band and on the inside it said "I'll always love you"
"I love you too sweetie, I really do" He smiled, picking me up and kissing me, I heard the cameras click, and I just smiled against his lips.
He put me down and we went to congratulate Ashley and Laurynn, and they congratulated us, and Jake, Jinxx and CC did as well, it was all one big hugging fest.
The boys had to snap a couple pictures as a group and a few alone, and while they were doing that, me and Laurynn were taking our ensemble pictures together and some separate.
The next thing we did, after me and Laurynn changed again, we were wearing our favorite Black Veil Brides stuff.
I had one of Andy's shirts on, six bracelets, Andy's pentacharm, black, ripped skinny jeans, black converse and I lifted
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My life, uncensored, unwritten, and undeniably, amazing :)
Okay :)
Last-minute-completely-unplanned-road-trip went really well.
the drive is WAY too long just to stay over night, and I would've liked to have stayed another day or so.
Maybe next time though.

I've been invited (of course) to come back during the summer and stay a week or so.
I really really want to.
I want my best friend to come with me :D
i kept teasing him saying oh i'm four miles from the georgia border who's jealous now :D
y'know that stuff.

Let's start from the beginning shall we?

I uh, woke up!!
yeah and i hear my mom yelling
"Brittney Nicole get some clothes on and be in the car in half an hour!!!"
of course i didn't make it in half an hour :D
I kept bugging her like where are we going where are we going
so she finally said "We're going to see aunt Jan and uncle Chuck are you happy now!?"
Yes, yes i fucking was :D
soooo after going to the store, and the bank, and my grandmother's house to pick her up, off we were on the seven hour drive
from Southwest Florida to the panhandle. Madison, to be exact.
During the long seven hours we encountered some pretty interesting car crashes.
Numero Uno
Car flipped and crushed another car under it. the baby was fine :)
Car flipped across four lanes of I-10.
Numbers three, four and five aren't too exciting..
So anyways we got there at about...four thirty or something.
it was already so cold up there, we had a bonfire waiting for us.
The yard is huge, literally.
it's amazing.
the house is so small compared to the land, but on the inside it's so big and pretty.
they live in a fucking hick town, (which, i can't really say anything cause i like it out there and now my accent's gonna be horribly heavy for the next week)
it's so deserted and stuff.
anyways. their driveway is downhill, and to prove just how 'downhill' it was, my uncle had me drive the four wheeler up the hill, and take the keys out and let it go.
I did, and we almost hit the house we were going so fast down that hill :rofl:
I fed their catfish!!!
they have two huge ponds full of catfish, and those suckers are huge ass fish.
i took handfulls of fish pellets (which, look like dog food) and went right in the water and they ate out of my hands.
their whiskers tickle :D
I got to see deer :D
they have deer all in their yard and you can hand feed them corn cobs :D
I got to see my babies again!
Their puppies aren't puppies no more :(
Mick's that silly little poodle, he's not mean anymore!
Uhhhhh, oh!
They got a Jack Russell, name's Bandit.
he's a squirrel chaser :D it's so fun to watch him go after them.
Chloe's my baby girl.
she's so thin now it's so sad.
She don't got many more miles on her i know that much.
She's the pitbull who pretty much saved my life :D
no lie :D
anyways. she's still such a sweetheart, she ran up to me when i first got there and knocked me on my ass the little thing did. :lmao:
Well after it got dark, everyone started showing up.
Everybody went hunting earlier that day.
nobody got nothing, which was a bit depressing.
But kinda good anyways cause i've only been hunting once and i can't stomach it.
But the house, oh god, no vegetarian, or faint hearted should go in that house :D
nor the garage..
the garage has seven bucks and does mounted on the main wall facing the outside.
The house itself has three bucks in the kitchen, two huge ass turkeys in the kitchen and four does in the living room along with some antelope type gazelle thing in the living room.
Everybody ate and talked and blah and then went home.
I went to bed at eleven thirty cause i was tired, and that bed felt so good.
my momma had to sleep on the couch, which wasn't at all uncomfortable.
their couch is just..i swear it's better than a bed.
it's fluffy and pillowish and stuff :D
{This is what happens when your relatives are fucking millionaires who haven't anything to do with their money but buy houses all over the country and hunt every damn day of their lives and get fancy couches and have five guest rooms that make my bedroom look small, which that in itself isn't possible}
I woke up quite early, i went with my uncle to get Hardee's for breakfast, but Hardee's don't open at six thirty, so we had to drive all the way to Valdosta Georgia to go to Bojangles to get food (which isn't a long trip since we're four miles from Georgia's border anyhow) maybe an hour trip if traffic's gross.
we came back and nobody but my momma and my gramma are up so we all sit outside, i go feed the catfish and freeze my legs off since it was cold and my legs were wet from the lake.
I changed my jeans and i came back and ate and whatever, watched Bandit chase squirrels
i went upstairs to my aunt's scrapbooking room, which really isn't a room it's a whole upstairs portion of the garage. it's so cold up there and it's so packed with stuff. she has a working scrapbooking business :rofl: people just come and go and make whatever they want, pay her for her material and go :D that was cool, she has so much stuff.
pretty blah morning, but it's quite calming and relaxing. Especially having no service or internet up there, it's very relaxing for me because when i have to worry about everyone and their lives that's when my panic attacks get fucking bad.
but up there i didn't have a one. not even the onset of one. i was free. :D
it felt great.
but when i had people to talk to, it was nice too cause i was really quite lonely up there :D
lonely, but calm, and nice :D
i had to walk a mile in the dark and cold just to get service to send anybody anything or get on the internet on my phone, which alone with perfect connection takes twenty minutes.
we left at around nine thirty this morning and just got home at four.
i'm so tired, and so sore.
i just want to lay in bed with heat on my back and that's what i'm going to do.
School may or may not be hell tomorrow depending on how my post-amazing-concert-and-weekend-road-trip-depression is, and how my other problem is :D


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darth-maul35 Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2013
happy b-day girly:)
balaceancabala Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2012
hy,let me paint you?
AndyRidae Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2012
thanks for the fav :hug:
echelonsophie Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
IAmBriKaulitz Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi :)
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